Tuesday, August 30, 2005

I'm okay

greetings from the natchitoches (it's pronounced NACK-idesh) parish library, where I'm using a stand up computer station because all the ones with chairs are taken. I'm lucky to have access to a computer at all, just like I'm lucky to be staying in my uncle's house in natchitoches instead of at a shelter, just like I'm lucky to have made it out of new orleans on sunday.

it's kind of amazing how hard it is for me to relax and write while standing up. I am overwhelmed by all of this, all of this, you know, the unanswered and unanswerable questions like, when can I go home and do I have a home, are all of my loved ones safe, I don't know, I just don't know, and, it's a lot like my feelings of september 2001, I have worries about my friends and family members and concerns for my own safety and uncertain future and then I am caught up in a massive guilt attack because I am so lucky, I am alive and housed, clothed and fed, I am here, I am somewhere.

this is all like nothing else I've known, it's all incredible.

it was 12 hours to drive the 280 miles from my door to the front door of the house we're in, it's right on the cane river, beautiful and weird.

5 comments:

Jenny said...

you're in my thoughts! Be safe.

Maia said...

I'm so glad you and the boys are okay! I've been thinking of you through all this. Please let me know if there's anything you need or we can do.

xox Maia

kimzyn said...

Coleen,
I haven't been to your blog in a long time but nonetheless have been worried about you and your family for the past 4 days. I'm so glad to hear you are safe and well. I don't know when you'll check in again but please visit my blog for an email address if you could use any sort of help. I hope and pray you have a home left and know that up here in Chicago we are shell shocked to hear of the calamity down there. Our thoughts for peace and recovery go out to you and your loved ones and neighbors.
Kim
bradley.chicago.il.us/kim/

om_wahine said...

Coleen,
It is September 1st and I flipped the Mama Calendar to September and remembered you had your blog address listed on it somewhere. We've been thinking of you and the boys again and again and are relieved to hear you are safe. What can we do to help?! Post an address next chance you get so we can send money/toys/clothes etc... tell us what you are most in need of. My heart breaks for your mess of emotions and loss of solid ground.
Much Love,
Jessica & Imagine

C.Cheapskate said...

Hi Coleen! Kara here (of Wrinkle Zine) I had to do a search for your blog address in an old DZM so I could come and see if you were okay. Thank you for taking the time to post! Thoughts are with you, your boys, and the whole Gulf Coast right now. Stay safe, be well.